Psalm 139

I went to BSF Bible Study this morning, met with some beautiful friends, am blessed beyond measure by a Heavenly Father who loves me so much, but the truth??  I am struggling.  Tears threaten to overflow.  I'm tired to the bone,  couldn't engage much this morning in our small group, and overwhelmed by the curves life has thrown us.  I shouldn't let these things get to me, but they do. Sometimes I feel like I shouldn't be so transparent, but I am.  I can never be accused of not being real!  :)  I am one of those people who tend to compare myself with others, and I shouldn't.  The father of lies whispers in my ear that I'm not deep enough, smart enough or good enough. He tries to get me to doubt God's plan.......I don't know what it is, but I know He has one. The way I get through life is relying on the love of my Father.  I tend to focus on God's great love for me because that's what carries me.  I remember when my Aunt Char said, "As soon as the devil opens his mouth you know he's lying!"  He can't tell the truth.  I'm glad I KNOW this truth, and how I miss my Aunt Char!!!  :'( Today I need to talk to her and get her wisdom on how to deal with the current problems we are facing.  Today I need to hear her belly laugh that lets me know everything is going to be alright.  Today I need her as my prayer warrior.  I've lost family and friends before, but she is the closest person to me that I have ever lost, and it still hurts over 5 years later.  I think of her often!

Okay, enough about me.  I wanna post one of my favorite Scriptures from the Bible that is always such an encouragement to my heart, and I hope it is an encouragement to yours!  :)

Psalm 139

For the director of music. Of David. A psalm.

1 You have searched me, Lord,
    and you know me.
2 You know when I sit and when I rise;
    you perceive my thoughts from afar.
3 You discern my going out and my lying down;
    you are familiar with all my ways.
4 Before a word is on my tongue
    you, Lord, know it completely.
5 You hem me in behind and before,
    and you lay your hand upon me.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
    too lofty for me to attain.

7 Where can I go from your Spirit?
    Where can I flee from your presence?
8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
    if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
    if I settle on the far side of the sea,
10 even there your hand will guide me,
    your right hand will hold me fast.
11 If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me
    and the light become night around me,”
12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
    the night will shine like the day,
    for darkness is as light to you.

13 For you created my inmost being;
    you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
    your works are wonderful,
    I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
    when I was made in the secret place,
    when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
16 Your eyes saw my unformed body;
    all the days ordained for me were written in your book
    before one of them came to be.
17 How precious to me are your thoughts,[a] God!
    How vast is the sum of them!
18 Were I to count them,
    they would outnumber the grains of sand—
    when I awake, I am still with you.

¹⁹ If only you, God, would slay the wicked!
    Away from me, you who are bloodthirsty!
²⁰ They speak of you with evil intent;
    your adversaries misuse your name.
²¹ Do I not hate those who hate you, Lord,
    and abhor those who are in rebellion against you?
²² I have nothing but hatred for them;
    I count them my enemies.
²³ Search me, God, and know my heart;
    test me and know my anxious thoughts.
²⁴ See if there is any offensive way in me,
    and lead me in the way everlasting.

Love,

Me  :)